What about a new hair style?

I think it's not considered as a new style since I always like 'long hair' style instead of short, but just want to make it shorter about 10 centimeters than before. I'm not sure the name of the model but will tell the salon to spruce my hair up. Today I'll get home few hours earlier, so have a chance to that salon. It's one of the best in town, but don't know if they can understand what I want for my hair style, just want to try. It's not gonna chance my entire 'look':) haha, don't have a courage to do that. My husband won't allow me either to do that, he said okay for cutting my hair just a bit..

So, next time I'll post my 'hairmophosis' here, hope you'll still recognized me with the new one. As my company make its advertisement on our new cigarette brand 'Changes is needed', i think I'll need that changes too.

So, get back here next week to keep updated:) see you all guys, have a nice weekend.

Get back to you on this new start of the month!!

I believe that you find no changes here, but trust me..I've cut my hour out about 10 centimeters or more...The good news is, my husband followed me on this 'hair cut' day:) Will post his photo with his new haircut if you want to:)..

Thanks to FB

For those who doesn't familiar with this, FB is abbreviation for Facebook. For me, I don't feel very familiar with it either. Just to stay in touch with couple old friends from school or college, which is nearly possible for us to meet each other since they live hundreds or thousands kilometers away. The other reason is, I can call them...some best friends of mine, that's more interesting to me.

Few days ago, one busy afternoon, one of my best friend told me that she had invitation from our friend to be added as his friend at FB. One reason why it sounds great for me is, he had never 'shown up' since his graduation. But the biggest reason is... he was my first boyfriend.

At that time after that, I was FB-walking just to see his profile there. As I thought before, he only put his son's photo as profile picture. It doesn't matter to me, everyone has their rights. From FB, I know that he have had 2 cute kids, 5 years old boy and 2 years old girl. He put some great pics of his family (without himself) there. Bali is a nice place to live I guess. So I gather all my courage to give him a comment on 1 picture of his kids, I said "Like father like son, but also like mother like daughter:)". I said that because his son looks exactly like him, and his daughter looks as cute as her mother. I don't need any reply on that since I was just happy to know that he had already add me as his friend.

Back to couple years ago, in 2002. That was the time when I graduated from university. As I remember, I was always become his 'recycle bin' (in a good meaning) for his relationship with another girl. But as time goes on, we have more than friend-friend feelings, you know what I mean..Short story, few months after that we have a remembrance story together. But that's it. After his return home to Bali, one day he sent me an sms telling that it'll never be the same again. Got no chance to ask for explanation, even after he returned back. Few times that we can see each other after that did not improve our relationship, friendship in this case..

As for now, what is important for me is...we're all have our own life, so what we can maintain is..friendship itself.So, friend...Lets make our friendship fun and meaningful at the same time.
Cheers.

Childhood of mine

People said that childhood is the happiest time of our life, since we don't have to worry about how to earn money, how we can eat and buy things, and how we spend our time. That's a good thinking I guess, but I don't really believe that, until I have a child!:) When I was in primary school, I've never been spoiled by my parents. Just given minimum daily pin money just to buy snacks or candy, so sometimes if I have an eye for a cute pencil case I have to wait for months.
I've always had a thought like this :
How happy we are if we can have our own money and can buy anything we want.

Even now when I can afford to buy things there's still a thought :
How happy we are if we can have enough time to spend that money.

Of course that's only a joke. It's not that I don't have 'time' but it's about having priority on how we spend money. That's just another things we should think as grown up people, not like a little kid.

Lets see...I think many kids out there have more happy times than me. Not much as I remember about my childhood. If I can say in 3 words about my childhood, I would mention this : energetic, sporty, and school minded.

People told me that I was an agile kid, can't stand not to move around.. (at least I know where my daughter got that nature from) haha. I think my mother had done a great job to prepare me breakfast every single day without a missed. You know something, I hate milk since I was a kid, but my mother force me to drink that at least twice a week. She always make decoction of greenpeal and ask me to drink it every morning after breakfast. Very much like tea but different smell. By nature my skin is dark, so I always wish to have fair skin, just a little girl inferiority I guess.

My father took me to the swimming pool almost every week since I was in elementary school, and of course as a kid I was so excited to play and learn how to swim. I was able to swim along the 50 meters distance and compete with my big brother for strength. Once I participated in a 3km sprint for celebrating my country anniversary, and although got no prize to win but I was quite pleased on it.

But all those sport I love to do is less exhausted compare to the school tasks I have to face everyday. In fact, I had achieved first rank on school grades since I was in second grade of elementary school, so it's been a burden for me to defend it. I took lessons on that to help me facing various kind of questions. I think it's not necessary to always achieve the highest rank, the important think is to enjoy our school period and make friends as many as possible. I realize that now...

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Just want to make sure that my parents have never...ever...read this one:) haha.My late grand father was a smoker, he bought tobacco and rolled his own cigar. Me and my brother were curious on that, so one day when no body at home we were sneaking around to taste it! Of course it makes me cough once I inhale it. But that's not the worst part. I remember few minutes after that someone is coming to our room, so without a thought I throw it away through my window. I don't realize that my bed was sun-dried below that window. Can you imagine what happen next? Because of that, we make stories to our parents that somebody else did it. So coward, isn't it? Viuuhh...We've never talked about that again...me and my brother:) Even he doesn't smoke either, well that's good for you...big brother.
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But there is something I can't talk here since that was too private and improper to mention. That thing I can't talk here is unforgetable bad experience to me. What I want you to know is, I will try my very best... to make my daughter...see only proper things for child to see.

I told you before that my mother had done a great job as a mother for us. I realize that I wish more than that now...I think it's better for moms being not only a mother but also a FRIEND. That was a thing that missed from our mother - daughter relationship. I was not able to tell lots of things (including my first love) to my mother since we were not so closed. This is the 2nd thing that I want my daughter not to experienced. Too much pain and hurt...I think I was still
grateful to have her as my mother. I need to take a deep breathe now, hurt enough just to remember it..

That's all I can 'dig' so far:)
time is to precious to forget..
it's easier to forget..
but forgive is sometimes a separate thing to do.

Had a deep thinking on something..

Lately I've been thinking about something.
As you know I'm a working mother with 3 years old daughter. What I've been thinking is this...I wake up about 4 AM in the morning everyday (including sunday), take a bath, do some home tasks like washing clothes, dishes, and cooking. Took 2 hours to do those things, and after that waked my daughter up from bed, take her for bath if there's still time for that, because you know how difficult a child taken for morningbath. Mostly it will take about 20 minutes for them to finish.

Breakfast is next thing to do, I always think that that's the most important meal to take for a whole day. Without make up on, I'm ready to hit the road to go for work. Took about 30 minutes, so I need to be ready before 7:20.

Thanks to my sweet husband that always lead us come and go for about 40km everyday. I think he's more tired than me, regardless no additional work for him at home:) that's okay for me, since I'm blessed with extra energy to do lots of daily work. I think (and I believe) every moms in the world blessed with that kind of energy too:) But sometimes I need to take break..

8 AM to 4 PM. @work.
What I love about my work as an IT staff is this :
Dealing with user problem, sometimes negotiate and break a lance with them..
Dealing with IT suppliers, have to be strict with them, some of them just want to earn more money from us and being not supportive..
Dealing with boss, I have many numbers of them here, so sometimes we have to be careful to make our own priority. Every case is urgent (they said) but it's always needed to queued up..

Last but not least :
Dealing with technical consultants, most of them are foreigner so that's the best time to learn English!:) Sometimes they're nice to talk about things other than work also.

If got no extra work at the office, I'll be home at 5 or so. Take a bath and start doing my task as mother. If i'm around, my kid won't let me do anything but to play with her, sing many kid 'foolish' songs, and follow her acts. That's been precious hours for me, being with my family and watching my daughter grow so fast. Each day is like winking my eyes.

That's what I worried much now, that I won't be able to pay attention on my daughter growth if I still work outside.

Considering we have lots of dreams in life, like having our own house, give my daughter a little brother or sister as a family member, and build our own business, I think for few
years we have to earn lots of money from work. And that will be hard if one of us quit from work, not less confidence to run our own business, but it's safe to run our side job
when we are working as employee also. About that house, we still search for it. Almost buy one but failed at last agreement, so it's time for us to take a deep breath and let it go.

To calm down my confusion, I think it's better for me to let everything go with the flow first, In the mean time I try to improve mother-child companionship first, so that my kid
feel more comfort with herself to learn everything with me on her side. Sometimes I imagine what would I look like as an ordinary full time house wife:) haha.

So stick around here to catch my new look:) just kidding, that will take long time for me to decide.

PS: wish me luck with the new house also, we really ...really... want that to become a real!!

You are getting old today

Happy birthday to you..

Now is april 29th and as I remember you're already 33 years old. I've just remember your birthday few days ago, after I met you for the second time at the church.

Sorry, but honestly there's nothing I can do to give you a greeting on this. I don't know your current cellphone number, so I think if I write on the net, at least some people knew how happy I am for you today. Hope you're blessed with happiness, health, and joyful. You deserve the best in life, regardless all you've done in the past.

One thing that I want you to know is this:

There was a time that I let love lived inside my heart for you..

But now is the time that I let that love find its place out there in the sky.

So time will never forget us..

And our story is always written.

Cheers!:)

Song for the soul

I remember that I want you to listen to these songs (have just found 1 so far), hope can feed our soul.

	Sidney Mohede - Aku Berserah
	Found at bee mp3 search engine

It's in Indonesian language mixed with English, so at the last part you will understand the meaning. The title means 'I surrender'... In the mean time, I'll try to search for more songs that we can listen together, but I let you know when I have stopped to search for them. And still try to find a way to upload songs from my PC to my blog (hope there are people out there had succeed to do the same thing and able to share their experience with me here)..

God bless you all.

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #22)

Last day of the project.
It supposed to be a relax day, but phone keeps on ringing. Keeps on receiving complains, especially because of the process changes. Quite big changes I think, so it's supposed to be hard to follow for users. I understand that, so I had prepared my ears and lips to listen and to explain to them. Viuhh...exhausted.

But I hope slowly (but sure) they will get used to it, since we don't have choice but to keeps on moving.

I buy few souvenirs for Brian, actually for his wife and kids (sorry about that Brian..but I have no idea what kind of things you like..haha). So, this is it. We decided to stand on our own, soon or later...the time is come. It's farewell time. He said to me 'I thought you'd ask me to stay.' Haha, I would but I feel sorry for my company to spend more money on you:)...That's just in my mind.. of course.

One thing I feel this morning after the project over..
One little piece of my heart had flown away

Well...Thank you very much for your support, hard work, time, cooperation, and last but not least...friendship. Because I have you as my friend now.

One numb moment..

It's easter today, happy easter:)...
I take my daughter to the church so she can meet friends at her age:) Sometimes she shakes her legs and hands follow the song leader, but some other time she's just staring at other children, I think she wonder what crowded is that..

Pay full attention of my daughter makes me heedless for one person who's watching over me there...He call my name and I can see him.Guy next door..

That's the moment that I feel numb.
My mouth, my mind, also my feeling..

But few seconds after that, I can control myself and had a little conversation with him. A little overweight but still the same person I knew. He asked me about my daughter and few other things. But I have to watched over my kid again (she'll disappear one second after I winked my eyes)...so I let that moment and chance gone. But I think many eyes watch over us since they knew that we had a relationship so long ago. Not correct time and place to meet I supposed, because I've never expected to see him so soon.

Not so soon actually, because it's been over 3 years. But what I mean is, If I met him at a better time I would gladly talk to him, just to know that he is just fine. Yeah, maybe later.
Amien..trully, It would be glad to meet him again after today.

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #20)

We have several problems today with our new servers. One is the lack of resources for users to run their process. So, we've added more resources for them. Well, we have not enough number of users to do testing, so it's unpredictable. Hope it's better next monday when users get back to work.Have to wait...

Other problem is on the system. I think it's a system bug we have in our new system, so I made a log call on our technical support. Of course take a long time, since it's saturday afternoo. But I think we are lucky today, we've got the solution, at least we can try. So, we have no choice but to download and apply the fixes. Then i'll do some testing, looks fine...Thanks GOD, otherwise I have no idea on what i'm going to do. But to make sure whether there is no more bugs, have to wait again...

So, my saturday night life is at my office:) so 'interesting'..

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #19)

GOOD FRIDAY
But I can't go to the church today:) haha, that's ok. Any friday will be as good as today, If we believe. That's for sure.

Just to make sure that the users will feel comfort works in the new servers, I sent them email today, so tomorrow will be a big day for us here in IT. We have to make sure everything is running with 1000% performance.

Hope so..

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #18)

ELECTION DAY...
Today I prepare my self for vote:)
As a citizen, I think it's our rights and obligation at the same time to vote.
Honestly, I prefer not to vote. You know why? because among all those political party, I think they are not good enough to receive trust and chance to do good things to our people. Only hope for vote, but nothing to give back. Sorry, but I think we're agree on that...

So, I go for vote. I choose only those who better in 'believe in GOD' (not believe in religion) and nationality. At least I don't throw away my right, that's was just my opinion, so lets wait on the result. Actually I've already known the result, because of course big and 'traditional' party will won, they have all to win the election.

Back on business, we can take a deep breath from now on, left only few testing and tuning up the system to work not just properly but also 'fast'. Come on, it's US$160,000 invest on the new servers! so, huge expectation on its performance.

Go home at 6:30pm...

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #17)

I told you before...

World Record for coming home late has been broken again!!

But I think this one will stand for long times to be broken. I left my office at 11:35pm and reach home after midnight. goodness!! And you know something, my lovely husband is always waiting for hours during my times in the office. I think I'll have nice sleep tonight, after this midnight I mean.

Tomorrow is a holiday, and the day after tomorrow too.
Election day is April 9th
Good Friday in April 10th.
But for me, there will be no holiday until we can go live on new servers.

That would be my pleasure, but it's been a pleasure these 3 weeks time:)

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #16)

I think i'll need more vitamin these days, my stamina is currently drop compare to last week. But it's still okay, just a bit tired..

Anyway, more and more testing tonight...I can achieve degree 'Master of Testing' for that:) haha. But we can prepare for the worst with good testing. On and off, shutdown and restart, log on and off...I try to learn different things when switch over those status, so it won't make me bored.

One thing that I enjoy so much is to introduce many kind of food here, but of course we'll think twice to ask him out for lunch at roadside, too risky. What if he has stomachache, my schedule will become longer...oh no!

Wait..wait... he's calling for me again, I think he can't live without me:) haha..
Bye for now...:) take care.

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #15)

World Record for coming home late has been broken!!



Yeap, last night I was going home at 10:45pm, and I reach home 30 minutes after that. So, that's not impossible that the record is going to be broken again this week, that's we can not guarantee:) haha. This is our last week on the project, so will be heavy days with testing and try to make the system as stable as possible.



Again...we must test it when other users is 'asleep', that's why our time is limited to do system testing. By the way..anyway..busway..we're having system training these 3 days ahead, so in the morning we face whiteboard the after 5pm we see black server screen:)



Not yet that I can take our consultant photos, but i try my best:) haha.
Wish me luck (not actually a luck, just need a chance..).

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #13)

Saturday afternoon...don't worry about me, I can go home 'early' today.
Yeah...sometimes we need rest, recharge our energy to get back on track on moday...
so....

SEE YOU SOON

i'll be in touch