Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #9)

Hi everybody, am I missing something? any news or gossip?
Oh really, my gosh...

Haha, actually I missed all the happening out there, because my life is full with project now. My world is only about how to finish it on time, my time is ...12 hours at work, 6 hours sleep, 3 hours doing house task, and only 2 or 3 hours playing around with my kid.

You see...only small world I face lately. But surrounding with supportive people here is a pleasure, indeed. Imagine, once you enter the server room at 8:00am..and the next minute you leave it...it's already dark outside:) so amazing.

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #8)

It's monday, a new week is about to begin.

I guess i've been recharge after whole week ' been used'..

So, back on business...It's been a long day at office, and now is 8:15pm, I'll be replacing office boy if i stay longer than this:) haha. So, I go back home at see whether everything that proceed is fine tomorrow. But wait, my daughter has made an order : McDonald french fries. It's her fave menu of all time:) Nevermind sweety, mom brought that for you.

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #6)

today is saturday...
and tomorrow is sunday:) yippie I can have a holiday, because it's not good for you if have no time to relax at home with your family.

They're like rain in the desert..
Like food to your soul..
Really comforting when you have them to love and hug..

I think it's enough for 1st week, give time to ourself to lay back:)
so see you all on monday...

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #5)

Hi again...
It's already 'flyday'...time flies hah:)
Been dizzy this afternoon...I think it's because of the weather outside and been overworked, but it's better now:) with some rest...
I think we've achieved out target this week, so we have holiday this sunday. Just to straighten my back and take my child for some fun. That's what i've been waiting for this entire week, since I have not enough time to focus on her.
You know something...I hope I don't loose more weight by the end of this project:) hope so.

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #4)

Actually this is holiday for us here in Indonesia, but we decided to take this time off for work. The main reason is, we need all users away from using the system, so we can do more testing.

Happy 'Nyepi Day' for Trisna and Rina there in Bali, must be quiet now there.
No airport activity..
No traffic jam..
No TV on..
So, we must keep quiet guys, don't interrupt them with their spiritual activity..

Back to work.
we face some big problems today, very unexpectable but good to shock us whether we need to be very careful with each step we take, could effect our work ahead.
But enough for today at 6:15pm, so I can go home and see my daughter. It seems that I always late for home this week, at least at 7pm. That makes me lost some time with my family, especially my daughter. But don't worry sweetheart, mom will pay for that time we missed these couple weeks ahead. That's my promise..

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #3)

I have noticed something about foreign people from other country. From the first time when my consultant arrived, he's been such an efficient one. Always 'be on time' is the most value added that I see from him. I didn't see that from my Indonesian consultant that regularly came here.

I know... it's been Indonesian people bad habbit for years...

Tomorrow is holiday here in Indonesia, we're given 1 day off for this 'Nyepi Day'. But of course...We decided to take it as regular office day, so that we can finish the project as soon as possible. And the main reason is, we need no disturbance from the user here. So, if they can't access the server, our process won't be interrupted.

How are you doing there? is it good or great?:) Thanks for leaving me messages, that's really become a supporting role... much. Haha..

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #2)

Forgive me not to write so many words here...
you know why?
because I've already said to much words in English to my consultant here about our project...and I feel tired, need more time to get used to it:)
I have stomachache yesterday because of the stressful, but it's better today
but that's okay, so far so good here in our upgrading project. It's been 2 days with knowledge transfer. Thanks GOD that my consultant is nice and kind..

I miss my friends out there, but job must come first.

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #1)

Here I write again...
After a busy week preparing for the upcoming project here in my office, I think I'll write about this 26 days in project. So when you can't 'reach' me on a fascinating talks like we always did, you're still be able to read here. Not always interesting and understandable things, but I can promise that you will understand that i have limited time just to go back to my desk and knowing that you're there...

Well, this morning i still have enough time. Our consultant is supposed to be arrived at Surabaya International Airport now. He's from Singapore. He'll be on 3 hours away from Kediri, so I'll prepare for his arrival. Little bit nervous because we haven't had a foreign consultant visited for 2 years. So if there's one thing I need the most...digital dictionary is the thing:)

Above all things, I'll just need to pray that everything will go smooth and can finish on schedule. Then, everybody here will be happy because we have planned for this about 4 months. I'm expecting my boss from Jakarta to welcoming our guest, but haven't heard any news from him either. So I think I'll had myself 'tend' on this project.

Wish me luck...
In the name of The Lord, please bless me with wisdom. To You I relied on..
Amien:)

Differences between man and woman..

(at lunch time and decided to write some...ehm what do you call it?)

Sounds interesting when read the title? I'm not gonna make it general since I didn't have complete character list of men and neither women, so I was going to change that title...sorry:)

Differences between virgo man and scorpio woman

Hope not reduce your fascination to read..

At one dinner time.
He eats almost all the food served..
She waits until he's done.

When one side makes mistakes.
His lips keep quiet and say no sorry..
She keeps on asking apologize.

TV is on.
He loves comedy..
She prefer tragedy.

Meet with new people.
He can make conclusion on their character..
While she saw only their good side..that's what she wants to see.

At job when trouble maker is doing the job.
He was able to confront face to face..
She picks email as a way out.

Anger Management.
He has no such thing.. eyes on eyes.
She will pass the exam with at least 80 from 100 scale.

Love storage.
He has a big room for that..
While she had prepared for an ocean to be overwhelmed.

(30 minutes after lunch)

It’s Ringing again…

I have my first cell phone when I was in college, about 9 years a go. At that time I was maybe one of the last student to have a cell phone at their own, dunno why, just don’t really need to use it. Not much choices of course to be considered. Actually, my parents bought it for me, including that number of my own +62 812 31 87XXX. I consider having it because of this boy. I have that remembrance him as soon as I remember my first cell phone, nokia 3310, and he was the first and only contact that I made on that phone for days, amazing..:)

We were in the same class at college, but don’t have a chance to get to know him in my initial year of college. We’ve been closed during that field trip to Bali in September 2000. It was just in my opinion, but I thought he was kind of cute and has ‘one of the best’ smile. First time using that phone, I even become non expert, didn’t have idea how to type sms.:) That was obvious, indeed. Just feel comfortable when having it with me. If you’re expecting a fascinating story related to him, be ready to be disappointed. Yeap..the story ended up there, just like that. He choose one girl, and it wasn’t me. I can deal with that, don’t worry.:)

He was just a star in the sky…
And only a stone in the deep blue sea…

Interesting one, but doesn’t take more than a month to forget that story. I think we both have the same feeling, just different size.:) haha, so comforting what I’m saying…I give a little room to breathe now, he was married with that girl he choose at that time, and now have 2 kids. That’s great, isn’t it?

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Well.. let see..My second phone was still nokia, I bought it in the year of 2003. I bought it because my first nokia was broken. At that time I was starting a new life at my sweet hometown. Actually my parents begged me to go back home after 6 years away from them. They asked me to apply for work at a cigarette company here. As the one and only daughter, I have to take that offer and leaving lots of friends miles away. It’s not that easy to start a new chapter I supposed. So, there’s no romantic nor interesting story came up with my 2nd phone, nokia 3200. But wait..wait.. don’t you just leave my story here. Yes…there was a man…

Actually I’ve already known him for years, since I was a child. You ask me how come? He was living next door to my house.

A son of a priest.
Good looking guy.

Here is the quick recap. He had a crush on me since I was in college, but at that time I said ‘no’. Then I choose a ‘yes’ answer at the 2nd time offer. We’ve been through tough months during our relationship. It was my parents, they don’t even consider him because of his past. Could not tell you details here, but trust me..I can easily understand why they did that, but hard enough for me to let him go. What I remember is we’ve been sneaking out for about 8 months, just to see each other.

Such a huge love he had given. I knew that I could miss once in a lifetime chance if I make that decision to let go of him. But it was one moment, one view that across my eyes…when I take a closer look at my mother’s weary face. What a sorrow eyes she had at that time…at that few seconds. Looks like been a burder to her with my relationship problem. Ever since that painful view, I’ve made up my mind, but still no chance to talk.

One day, right after my 120km trip, I was on the bus home. I thought that must be my only chance, it was now or never. It was pouring rain, I asked him to pick me up and I choose that dinner time…I let him go…April 2004.

Yes, still using that nokia 3200. Of course there are many messages and photos left and not been deleted for long times. I let him go but let his memory stay. I was like dead living person months after that, I let my heart go with him I think. We were still friends after that, but never heard any news from him again. For years.

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Next one.
Still the same brand, I was kind of nokia minded. I choose black nokia 7610. I bought it in April 2005. I like its shape and of course the color.
A man behind that? Yes, I forgot to mention that:)
He was a friend …to a friend of mine. We worked in the same company, but different department. So there is no chance to get to know him at work. We were introduced by a friend of mine at a new year celebration…December 31th 2004. There is no special feature on him as I remember. I noticed that he had a self confidence.

No physically special..except his height..

I can see strong character at first sight. I can’t expect anything. One reason is I was just having fun far away from home during that celebration. Other reason is…I knew that my friend who introduced us had a special feeling for him, just knew it. Never expected to see him again…until that live concert. Here is the plan : me with my 2 other friend want to see that music concert, and of course already had 3 tickets in hands. But last minutes before that, this friend of mine wanted to join us…with that man. Short story, after that concert we have couple chances to see each other and of course… dealing with our cell phone.

Such an important role they played in our life, don’t you think?

I thought we have that ‘bizarre love triangle’… but it’s not the bizarre thing what I mean here, at that time I feel like I’m gonna lose my best friend because of that.

But my heart showed me another way.

So I tool that risk, because I knew they were just friends. Of course I knew that she will at least made a distance to me or even worst. Well, best friend ‘in some cases’ is not forever.

The one which live forever was the distance she made.

Many people, especially at work changed their opinion about me after that. Well, I just leave it and I think time will tell. That’s the only thing I can do. So we’re having serious relationship for about 7 months and then take a huge step ahead.. marriage.

Yes, right. He’s my husband I tell you in a story now. I let my cell phone full with messages and photos during our relationship. I saved up to 300 messages here in my cell phone. I’m thankful that it’s still worked after 4 years now, although have been drowned once at my bath room:).

Maybe it’s time for a change, but do I need one more man as the reason behind that? Haha, we’ll never know. Well, I let you know when I have a new one…cell phone I mean.

01:35am
(when expecting Manchester United vs Internazionale match)

My 'rectoverso' in person..

I knew this word from a book, called 'rectoverso'. It's written by one Indonesian female writer (and also singer) named Dewi Lestari. I've already read some of her books, including this one. Actually, the writer make this 'Rectoverso' in 2 different version, book and songs album, which has same title. Rectoverso means 2 images that looks like separately but in one unity that complete each other. We can enjoy those 2 versions at the same time, hearing and reading..

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I have never expected to know you in person. Especially now, when my world is fully complete (that was I thought). That's it...when i feel complete, the ground beneath me is not moving anymore like it should be, everything is under controlled so i feel too comfort inside and can't see the world turning around. Now i think that was no longer a perfection, but definitely a danger..

Then one day you 'passed' me by, weeks ago. I've just given full access to those unreal and transparent world when I knew you. Well, for me you are real, that's for sure. I was just thinking, you are my 'rectoverso' in person. You're the one who always can explain 'in words' how i am and what i will do. Maybe it's me who was to exciting then exaggerating moments like these. You can say that also, that's so normal, and in fact i can't give you some scientific answer:)...

But indeed, each and every single time since I knew you, it has been a 'pouring' time of inspiration, flame, and life passion. Thanks to you, the cool dude, for turning my days the way they should be, and for pouring your heart into my life. You brought back my radiance shine, and i hope at the end of time when everything disappeared, my heart found its trully shape. I realize something now, a heart has to be built just like a home, has to be transformed in any shape like a gum, until it's coming back to where it belongs to..

Thanks to you:)
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Should be no name mentioned, because we can all know and feel..

Sing it with me...

Dear all,

Actually, I'm not a good listener..
Do you want any proof of that? ok, let me explain...
sometimes I like a song just because of the music, so whatever the lyrics said...let it be:)..
At least i'm good at receiving message from the songwriter..

So..use your ears to listen,
mind to understand,
body to express,
and heart to feel..

Hope can upload it here soon so my blog can be the air station for you all,
take a deep breath first before..
Some songs here will hold your breath for a while..
check this out..

1. Let me fall - Josh Groban
2. Broken Vow - Lara Fabian
3. Papercut - Linkin Park
4. Uninvited - Alanis Morisette
5. Do what you have to do - Sarah McLachlan
6. The first time ever I saw your face - Celine Dion
7. Water Runs Dry - Boyz Two Men
8. A place for my head - Linkin Park
9. The scientist - Coldplay
10. Foolish Game - Jewel

Please don't hesitate to leave me comments..
to arnie : I'm the one who's airing the songs this time:) haha.

	Alanis Morissette - Uninvited
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	Sarah McLachlan - Do What You Have To Do
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	Celine Dion - First time ever I saw your face
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	Boyz II Men - Water Runs Dry
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	Linkin Park - A Place for My Head
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	heero002 - Coldplay - The Scientist
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	- - Foolish Games
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Four eyes..

Being in front of my computer at least 8 hours a day is a little bit harder now. Sometimes can make me dizzy, it could be worse so it looks like 'flying letter'. One reason is... we don't use LCD screen and monitor shield here. After quiet long 'budget calculation' time:)...well sure that it'll cost me a number, I think I'll put on anti-radiation glasses.

That was months ago, got some items being prioritized first. Two days ago had a chance to take a look at a store nearby, so I pick my first ever glasses. So here I am, now, with four eyes. I'll try to get used to it first, not so comfort at the first time. I think today is one of my historical moment:) haha, so exaggerating..

I've already received comments from some friends here in the office, they said that I should take it off because I look too serious when wearing it:) haha.

eyes..

a sight to the heart

a key to the soul

tickets to happiness and also sorrow at the same time

can be a freedom or strings attached to you...

be better to use them..