My Ordinary Birthday

Half way to go...

31 years is more than enough to having good time with friends and experience new beginning of something. Still half way of journey to maintaining happiness with family of my own.

Big thank you LORD...Hope that I still have teenage energy to raise my child...children soon. Hope that I still have enough time to take their hands around me. Hope that I have enough love to share with my beloved.

It's just ordinary day, my heart that full of joy while receiving new age from GOD that makes today a very special day.

Allergic to drugs

Now is my 11th week of pregnancy. Unfortunately, I have to face this allergic condition. Why unfortunate? First of all, the only thing that can be an allergen to me is cold weather. And that can't be a huge effect on me. Just few skin irritation and that was just only take a day or two.

So, this is my first time EVER to have allergic, especially to drugs. In this case Vitamin B6. Even my doctor was surprised to find me with this allergic. So, I asked him to give me another kind of Vitamin B6. At that time I was not very sure about the allergen so I accept that prescription. Even worst, after taken it twice in a day my right hand got lump and the skin irritation become worse.

Finally, I made up my mind to see my doctor at clinical centre. Once again, he said that no such vitamin that can harm and become an allergen to human. He just given me skin ointment and some kind of pill. Thanks GOD it's better now. Not yet healed but I hope I'm on that way:)

Just want to share with you guys, no big deal. It's just 'skin'. We're given a new skin anyway...someday.

Thank you LORD..

Hi again to all..might be needed some more energy to write again. I remember, last time i write here, it's about having plan to have more child. And now, allow me to thank the Lord for His blessings.

Yes!! we are expecting new baby now:)

It's been 9 weeks or so, and it's the first time I tell the net about the good news. Well, it's been a busy months, along my 2 first months being a pregnant woman again. I have to fly all the way to Jakarta for business and have some technical problems with my servers at the office..So, finally I can write again.

USG speaks..!
Every pregnancy has its own nature.
Yeah, I believe that. It has its difficulty also. Considering that this is my second pregnancy, I believe that as a pregnant woman, we have to know what can make us comfort the most. Food and activities. Just combine them both, eat 'comforting' foods and do as much as you can to 'throw out' attention instead of thinking about morning sickness:)

Well, flu can be a gigantic illness for us. Considering for not taking medicine is the main reason. I've been through that whole week in flu on my week number 7. Finally, that's already over. Now I can enjoy a little bit, taking care of my first daughter with her school homework and her brother/ sister inside me.

Well, I hope I can write much someday about my days. So, I can remember all those wonderful times of my life. I agree with my priest at the church, he once said if we bless for people, the blessings will also bless us.

So, bless you my friends.

It's been a while..

It's been a while...long while I mean..for me not to write, here in my blog. Sorry for that, actually it's not hundred percent caused by my works at the office. Just need some time to arrange all the routines activity. And, many accessories order that came to me, so It's been a long time to write again.
It's still me. If we have some space to figure out what we have achieved in years, I think we have been through so much times in struggle and less time in relax. Just relax..

We shall overcome.
Like those quotes …After every storm, a rainbow appears. The hardest times in my life was after gave birth for my daughter. I knew nothing about raising a child, yeah what I knew that time was …I want to be the best mother for my baby girl. And after almost 4 years now, I realized that the biggest portion that we can afford to our child is to love and willingness to give them our best times.

Now, as parents…me and my husband is planning to have more child. First of all, I become older now. I hope 31 will become my lucky year haha. Give birth is something that need extra power, above 35 is so hard, that’s just from my experience. Second off all, I think my daughter need more friends of her ages. If she has a little brother or sister, it will become a great pleasure to her. She will go to school next month so having a little baby is not gonna be a big jealousy. So, wish me luck.

Deep inside my heart, I know that my husband is always dream about having a car for ride. Not for silly reason, more is for comfort and safety. We have decided to buy a new car last month, not a luxurious one, but it’s more than enough for me. Never thought that we will have a car of our own so fast. Thank you God. Please lead and guide us. Amien.

My new E71...great phone.

Yeap...dream comes true:)

If you found that I always had a story behind my choice on cellphone, you should be prepare to be disappointed since it was no interesting story except that it was my 30th birthday present. In the beginning my beloved husband wanted to buy me Iphone 3G, I said "honey, do you know how much is that phone? no way that we want to buy that phone." So when few weeks ago I search on E71 on the net, I told him that this phone is closed enough to that Iphone, except the touchscreen of course.

Surprisingly, I have no interest on blackberry. Don't know why, just don't want to follow the lifestyle here. Other reason is because the brand. Nokia is much easier to use (in my opinion, don't take personally on this, haha).

So, here it is. My 'grey steel' Nokia E71. I'll upload the photo here later (still grumbling why I can no longer upload photos on my blogpost). So, I'll wait for you to follow me having our personal E71. Come on, it's only US $325. But if you wait a little longer, it should be cheaper now.

6 Days Vacation in Bali : Day#4

September 22 2009, Time for another adventure & a little shopping

Next stop is called Tanah Lot, another beach that has a temple surrounding by the sea. Unfortunately it's high water there so we can't see the snake that live in the cave below.

You know something, next thing that I love from Bali is, it's the place where you can find both most expensive and cheapest cloth and souvenir. Just choose your own style of shopping. For me, I prefer to go on window shopping when I found expensive things. So, when I saw a perfect bag there at CHANEL store, I said to my self I can make that bag myself, but of course with
different material and style.

We went to a market that sell many kind of art and clothes, just to buy few souvenirs and clothes for my beloved family at home. It's been domestic tourists favourite place, because of its price I believe.

6 Days Vacation in Bali : Day#3

September 21 2009, Time for adventure

We will visit 3 beautiful beaches today.Yes, I'll post the pictures for you my loyal readers:)

Kuta is the most crowded and popular beach in Bali, 50% are foreign people. We have to walk about 1kilometer to get to the most interesting hotel near Kuta Beach, Hard Rock Hotel. No, we don't stay there, just want to take pictures in front of the hotel. Haha, narcism is back!

Next point is Nusa Dua Beach. Not as popular as Kuta but still a nice place to visit. As always, the one who has most enthusiasm to walk is my kid. The third one was Sanur Beach, I don't like it much since it was more dirty and we can't reach the beach and take a walk on the sand.

It's rainy day today, it's like the rain is chasing behind us, so excited. No special menus, I want to taste special menu of fish or chicken, but I think people with me is not concern about that so we just take a regular food, just to avoid stomachache I think. That's okay, I've been there before and I hope it's not the last time I went there.

One more thing, I have a chance to see my friend in university other than Trisna. It was Rina, another Balinese mom:) with her family: husband and almost 2years old baby girl. What a blessing for me to meet them again after 6 years. Not much changes on them unless they have their own family now.

6 Days Vacation in Bali : Day#2

September 20 2009, Time for a little rest

We went for lunch at 1pm (Bali time is an hour ahead than ours in java island) then we tried to find Trisna's house. Bingo, there she is picking us and showed us the way to her house. Viuhh...i'm glad that finally I made it there and see he family, husband and 2 years old sweet little kid. She and my kid suddenly became so close and I'm glad seeing that, finally she found her first soulmate:) Kid...

We went out just to take a closer look at denpasar at night, I think it's more beautiful at night. The lights, interior, store are everywhere. Such a paradise for those who love to see art in all variance of thing. For me, this is one thing I like from people in Bali. Such a creative people they are.

6 Days Vacation in Bali : Day#1

September 19 2009, Celebrating our 4th anniversary on road

Yes, today is our 4th anniversary, but no celebration required I think. But It's beyond my expectation that my husband said some nice WORDS to me about it, more than a gift to me of what he said. Thank you sweetheart.

I thought our plan to go on vacation to Bali will be postponed again this year. I'll tell you why.The car that we rent several months ago can not be prepared due to an accident a night before our schedule. We will have a big disappoinment if we don't go, but it's okay I supposed. GOD's plan is always beyond aour imagination right? We supposed to be ready to go on 5pm but at that time we still wait until 9pm, the replacement car is arrived. Well, thx GOD at least we can still visit one of the most beautiful island in Indonesia.

We are ready to go on 11pm, almost midnight so I woke my daughter up and carry her with me. I'm sure she will enjoy the holidays. Since we were against the holiday traffic, it almost too smooth the journey we take to get to the port. Even when we want to come across by boat, the queue is just normal. It took about half an hour to go accross java sea, the boat shaking make us dizzy but long road to go from that Bali port at Gilimanuk to Badung, where we want to take a little rest at my bestfriend's house, Trisna. Gosh, another 3 hours to go.

Blessed you with wisdom...honey

Every single breath of us has been defined ever since GOD plan to create this galaxy. That's what I always believe. So, today when you, my beloved soulmate and bestfriend, commemorating your 31st birthday, I'd like to join your delightful day. I'd also like to wish more wisdom for you, for our days left on earth. I believe that wisdom is a 'must have' items added to us, it can lead us to the right way of life, and can enlight us in any circumstances.

This 4 wonderful years with you has given me a lot. Lots of joy, but also tears and heartbroken moments. I think that's the art of life, no matter we tried, good must balanced with bad things as long as we can correctly interpreting those moments.

One shiny afternoon (september 9th 2009 4:48pm) I wrote this on my phone's draft with grumbling on you :

I was born with this huge understanding to others,
and with less expectation,
none of anger,
that's why I can live my life to know you guys,
people with just a little heart,
cool at most of times...but cold blooded heart killer too

So honey, happy birthday to you...wish you a joyful days, and my love to you will always changed to various good shape so we can pass through our life together.

Love you..

My little girl's big jump

Sunday Morning.

It's been a regular occasion that we spent our holiday at my parents' home. So around 10am after church, we pack our bag and make my daughter ready to go. One plan in mind that I want to ease her addiction on milk bottle away since she will be 3 years old soon. I think that will need courage from us as her parents to give her a chance, that's from what I felt. I think I want to share this with young parents who had this experience.

Here is what i did. I changed half part of her ordinary milk with an organic soybean milk that I consumed. When she refused to finished drinking it, I gave her an instant milk with straw. I told her maybe her daily milk changed its flavor into some unpleasant one. First problem i face was when she wanted to take a nap around 12pm. She had never missed her bottle when getting off to sleep. She was whining for her bottle so I made that soybean milk, again she refused it. Finally she was felt a sleep without that. That was our first success.

Those afternoon times give us strengh and confidence to get through the first whole day without bottle. We don't encounter much problem at night when she went to bed, I think she had this thought in her mind "Instant milk is not bad at all". It's been a week since she had her last bottle, and honestly we felt like winning a big triumph. It brought joy to our life since we have plan to send her to kindergarten next year. So from what I saw, she's ready for school.

Good job big girl, you've done such an impressive 'adult' behaviour although you're not yet 3 years old, that's what mommy thought.

You should try this at home : DETOXIFICATION

Detoxification : process of removing harmful substances from your body by only eating and drinking particular things. (Oxford Learner's Pocket Dictionary)

I've never thought to take this detox process my entire life. You know why? I tell you why. First thing, I can't eat without rice. Yeap, I think that's been a habbit for most of Indonesian people to have rice as staple food. Second of all, I don't care much about the vegetables if it served with side dish. So, I can't imagine how would I eat without all of that?

But when my friend explain how he feels after taking the detox process, Ive been thinking maybe the time is come to take the advantage of that detoxification. So, although it's not cheap, I bought it with no regrets and strong will. I think that's a good start:)

Short words, last week I started the plan. Of course I still cook everyday menus for my family, just put some additional vegetables so that I can have them to replace my staple food. First day, honestly been a hard day since we bought my daughter favourite menu 'French Fries' after work. It's my first job at home after got home to coax my daughter to finished her dinner. I forgot to tell you the directions for use 'Organic Botanical Powdered Beverage', maybe you've known that kind of food supplement from other brand. I won't put any advertisement here, don't worry:) haha. But of course you can always ask me if interested.

Next challenge is to continue follwoing 6 days left. I've been felt comfortable with the detox process and all of its requirements. And I've noticed one good side of having detoxification, what I mean is a good 'side effect' of it. My husband puts more attention to me of how I eat and asked me how my body react with that supplement I take. You know something, he's the person that very careful in taking medicine. I think that's why he didn't want to take that detoxification. So, on day #6, the part of those harmful substances inside my body came out with feces (sorry to mention but I think it will be better and useful to know) with about 30 centimeters long.

So, I've been passed that detoxification now, and start to make changes on my daily portion of rice. We'll see about that later. When I look at my face in the mirror (you know something, I only look at it once a day when put my make up on..haha), I think I have brighter color of skin now, a little bit..

Any interest on trying this? Please feel free to ask and leave me comments. Sorry if I mention 'improper' words here. Great day guys:)

What about a new hair style?

I think it's not considered as a new style since I always like 'long hair' style instead of short, but just want to make it shorter about 10 centimeters than before. I'm not sure the name of the model but will tell the salon to spruce my hair up. Today I'll get home few hours earlier, so have a chance to that salon. It's one of the best in town, but don't know if they can understand what I want for my hair style, just want to try. It's not gonna chance my entire 'look':) haha, don't have a courage to do that. My husband won't allow me either to do that, he said okay for cutting my hair just a bit..

So, next time I'll post my 'hairmophosis' here, hope you'll still recognized me with the new one. As my company make its advertisement on our new cigarette brand 'Changes is needed', i think I'll need that changes too.

So, get back here next week to keep updated:) see you all guys, have a nice weekend.

Get back to you on this new start of the month!!

I believe that you find no changes here, but trust me..I've cut my hour out about 10 centimeters or more...The good news is, my husband followed me on this 'hair cut' day:) Will post his photo with his new haircut if you want to:)..

Thanks to FB

For those who doesn't familiar with this, FB is abbreviation for Facebook. For me, I don't feel very familiar with it either. Just to stay in touch with couple old friends from school or college, which is nearly possible for us to meet each other since they live hundreds or thousands kilometers away. The other reason is, I can call them...some best friends of mine, that's more interesting to me.

Few days ago, one busy afternoon, one of my best friend told me that she had invitation from our friend to be added as his friend at FB. One reason why it sounds great for me is, he had never 'shown up' since his graduation. But the biggest reason is... he was my first boyfriend.

At that time after that, I was FB-walking just to see his profile there. As I thought before, he only put his son's photo as profile picture. It doesn't matter to me, everyone has their rights. From FB, I know that he have had 2 cute kids, 5 years old boy and 2 years old girl. He put some great pics of his family (without himself) there. Bali is a nice place to live I guess. So I gather all my courage to give him a comment on 1 picture of his kids, I said "Like father like son, but also like mother like daughter:)". I said that because his son looks exactly like him, and his daughter looks as cute as her mother. I don't need any reply on that since I was just happy to know that he had already add me as his friend.

Back to couple years ago, in 2002. That was the time when I graduated from university. As I remember, I was always become his 'recycle bin' (in a good meaning) for his relationship with another girl. But as time goes on, we have more than friend-friend feelings, you know what I mean..Short story, few months after that we have a remembrance story together. But that's it. After his return home to Bali, one day he sent me an sms telling that it'll never be the same again. Got no chance to ask for explanation, even after he returned back. Few times that we can see each other after that did not improve our relationship, friendship in this case..

As for now, what is important for me is...we're all have our own life, so what we can maintain is..friendship itself.So, friend...Lets make our friendship fun and meaningful at the same time.
Cheers.

Childhood of mine

People said that childhood is the happiest time of our life, since we don't have to worry about how to earn money, how we can eat and buy things, and how we spend our time. That's a good thinking I guess, but I don't really believe that, until I have a child!:) When I was in primary school, I've never been spoiled by my parents. Just given minimum daily pin money just to buy snacks or candy, so sometimes if I have an eye for a cute pencil case I have to wait for months.
I've always had a thought like this :
How happy we are if we can have our own money and can buy anything we want.

Even now when I can afford to buy things there's still a thought :
How happy we are if we can have enough time to spend that money.

Of course that's only a joke. It's not that I don't have 'time' but it's about having priority on how we spend money. That's just another things we should think as grown up people, not like a little kid.

Lets see...I think many kids out there have more happy times than me. Not much as I remember about my childhood. If I can say in 3 words about my childhood, I would mention this : energetic, sporty, and school minded.

People told me that I was an agile kid, can't stand not to move around.. (at least I know where my daughter got that nature from) haha. I think my mother had done a great job to prepare me breakfast every single day without a missed. You know something, I hate milk since I was a kid, but my mother force me to drink that at least twice a week. She always make decoction of greenpeal and ask me to drink it every morning after breakfast. Very much like tea but different smell. By nature my skin is dark, so I always wish to have fair skin, just a little girl inferiority I guess.

My father took me to the swimming pool almost every week since I was in elementary school, and of course as a kid I was so excited to play and learn how to swim. I was able to swim along the 50 meters distance and compete with my big brother for strength. Once I participated in a 3km sprint for celebrating my country anniversary, and although got no prize to win but I was quite pleased on it.

But all those sport I love to do is less exhausted compare to the school tasks I have to face everyday. In fact, I had achieved first rank on school grades since I was in second grade of elementary school, so it's been a burden for me to defend it. I took lessons on that to help me facing various kind of questions. I think it's not necessary to always achieve the highest rank, the important think is to enjoy our school period and make friends as many as possible. I realize that now...

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Just want to make sure that my parents have never...ever...read this one:) haha.My late grand father was a smoker, he bought tobacco and rolled his own cigar. Me and my brother were curious on that, so one day when no body at home we were sneaking around to taste it! Of course it makes me cough once I inhale it. But that's not the worst part. I remember few minutes after that someone is coming to our room, so without a thought I throw it away through my window. I don't realize that my bed was sun-dried below that window. Can you imagine what happen next? Because of that, we make stories to our parents that somebody else did it. So coward, isn't it? Viuuhh...We've never talked about that again...me and my brother:) Even he doesn't smoke either, well that's good for you...big brother.
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But there is something I can't talk here since that was too private and improper to mention. That thing I can't talk here is unforgetable bad experience to me. What I want you to know is, I will try my very best... to make my daughter...see only proper things for child to see.

I told you before that my mother had done a great job as a mother for us. I realize that I wish more than that now...I think it's better for moms being not only a mother but also a FRIEND. That was a thing that missed from our mother - daughter relationship. I was not able to tell lots of things (including my first love) to my mother since we were not so closed. This is the 2nd thing that I want my daughter not to experienced. Too much pain and hurt...I think I was still
grateful to have her as my mother. I need to take a deep breathe now, hurt enough just to remember it..

That's all I can 'dig' so far:)
time is to precious to forget..
it's easier to forget..
but forgive is sometimes a separate thing to do.

Had a deep thinking on something..

Lately I've been thinking about something.
As you know I'm a working mother with 3 years old daughter. What I've been thinking is this...I wake up about 4 AM in the morning everyday (including sunday), take a bath, do some home tasks like washing clothes, dishes, and cooking. Took 2 hours to do those things, and after that waked my daughter up from bed, take her for bath if there's still time for that, because you know how difficult a child taken for morningbath. Mostly it will take about 20 minutes for them to finish.

Breakfast is next thing to do, I always think that that's the most important meal to take for a whole day. Without make up on, I'm ready to hit the road to go for work. Took about 30 minutes, so I need to be ready before 7:20.

Thanks to my sweet husband that always lead us come and go for about 40km everyday. I think he's more tired than me, regardless no additional work for him at home:) that's okay for me, since I'm blessed with extra energy to do lots of daily work. I think (and I believe) every moms in the world blessed with that kind of energy too:) But sometimes I need to take break..

8 AM to 4 PM. @work.
What I love about my work as an IT staff is this :
Dealing with user problem, sometimes negotiate and break a lance with them..
Dealing with IT suppliers, have to be strict with them, some of them just want to earn more money from us and being not supportive..
Dealing with boss, I have many numbers of them here, so sometimes we have to be careful to make our own priority. Every case is urgent (they said) but it's always needed to queued up..

Last but not least :
Dealing with technical consultants, most of them are foreigner so that's the best time to learn English!:) Sometimes they're nice to talk about things other than work also.

If got no extra work at the office, I'll be home at 5 or so. Take a bath and start doing my task as mother. If i'm around, my kid won't let me do anything but to play with her, sing many kid 'foolish' songs, and follow her acts. That's been precious hours for me, being with my family and watching my daughter grow so fast. Each day is like winking my eyes.

That's what I worried much now, that I won't be able to pay attention on my daughter growth if I still work outside.

Considering we have lots of dreams in life, like having our own house, give my daughter a little brother or sister as a family member, and build our own business, I think for few
years we have to earn lots of money from work. And that will be hard if one of us quit from work, not less confidence to run our own business, but it's safe to run our side job
when we are working as employee also. About that house, we still search for it. Almost buy one but failed at last agreement, so it's time for us to take a deep breath and let it go.

To calm down my confusion, I think it's better for me to let everything go with the flow first, In the mean time I try to improve mother-child companionship first, so that my kid
feel more comfort with herself to learn everything with me on her side. Sometimes I imagine what would I look like as an ordinary full time house wife:) haha.

So stick around here to catch my new look:) just kidding, that will take long time for me to decide.

PS: wish me luck with the new house also, we really ...really... want that to become a real!!

You are getting old today

Happy birthday to you..

Now is april 29th and as I remember you're already 33 years old. I've just remember your birthday few days ago, after I met you for the second time at the church.

Sorry, but honestly there's nothing I can do to give you a greeting on this. I don't know your current cellphone number, so I think if I write on the net, at least some people knew how happy I am for you today. Hope you're blessed with happiness, health, and joyful. You deserve the best in life, regardless all you've done in the past.

One thing that I want you to know is this:

There was a time that I let love lived inside my heart for you..

But now is the time that I let that love find its place out there in the sky.

So time will never forget us..

And our story is always written.

Cheers!:)

One numb moment..

It's easter today, happy easter:)...
I take my daughter to the church so she can meet friends at her age:) Sometimes she shakes her legs and hands follow the song leader, but some other time she's just staring at other children, I think she wonder what crowded is that..

Pay full attention of my daughter makes me heedless for one person who's watching over me there...He call my name and I can see him.Guy next door..

That's the moment that I feel numb.
My mouth, my mind, also my feeling..

But few seconds after that, I can control myself and had a little conversation with him. A little overweight but still the same person I knew. He asked me about my daughter and few other things. But I have to watched over my kid again (she'll disappear one second after I winked my eyes)...so I let that moment and chance gone. But I think many eyes watch over us since they knew that we had a relationship so long ago. Not correct time and place to meet I supposed, because I've never expected to see him so soon.

Not so soon actually, because it's been over 3 years. But what I mean is, If I met him at a better time I would gladly talk to him, just to know that he is just fine. Yeah, maybe later.
Amien..trully, It would be glad to meet him again after today.

Differences between man and woman..

(at lunch time and decided to write some...ehm what do you call it?)

Sounds interesting when read the title? I'm not gonna make it general since I didn't have complete character list of men and neither women, so I was going to change that title...sorry:)

Differences between virgo man and scorpio woman

Hope not reduce your fascination to read..

At one dinner time.
He eats almost all the food served..
She waits until he's done.

When one side makes mistakes.
His lips keep quiet and say no sorry..
She keeps on asking apologize.

TV is on.
He loves comedy..
She prefer tragedy.

Meet with new people.
He can make conclusion on their character..
While she saw only their good side..that's what she wants to see.

At job when trouble maker is doing the job.
He was able to confront face to face..
She picks email as a way out.

Anger Management.
He has no such thing.. eyes on eyes.
She will pass the exam with at least 80 from 100 scale.

Love storage.
He has a big room for that..
While she had prepared for an ocean to be overwhelmed.

(30 minutes after lunch)

It’s Ringing again…

I have my first cell phone when I was in college, about 9 years a go. At that time I was maybe one of the last student to have a cell phone at their own, dunno why, just don’t really need to use it. Not much choices of course to be considered. Actually, my parents bought it for me, including that number of my own +62 812 31 87XXX. I consider having it because of this boy. I have that remembrance him as soon as I remember my first cell phone, nokia 3310, and he was the first and only contact that I made on that phone for days, amazing..:)

We were in the same class at college, but don’t have a chance to get to know him in my initial year of college. We’ve been closed during that field trip to Bali in September 2000. It was just in my opinion, but I thought he was kind of cute and has ‘one of the best’ smile. First time using that phone, I even become non expert, didn’t have idea how to type sms.:) That was obvious, indeed. Just feel comfortable when having it with me. If you’re expecting a fascinating story related to him, be ready to be disappointed. Yeap..the story ended up there, just like that. He choose one girl, and it wasn’t me. I can deal with that, don’t worry.:)

He was just a star in the sky…
And only a stone in the deep blue sea…

Interesting one, but doesn’t take more than a month to forget that story. I think we both have the same feeling, just different size.:) haha, so comforting what I’m saying…I give a little room to breathe now, he was married with that girl he choose at that time, and now have 2 kids. That’s great, isn’t it?

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Well.. let see..My second phone was still nokia, I bought it in the year of 2003. I bought it because my first nokia was broken. At that time I was starting a new life at my sweet hometown. Actually my parents begged me to go back home after 6 years away from them. They asked me to apply for work at a cigarette company here. As the one and only daughter, I have to take that offer and leaving lots of friends miles away. It’s not that easy to start a new chapter I supposed. So, there’s no romantic nor interesting story came up with my 2nd phone, nokia 3200. But wait..wait.. don’t you just leave my story here. Yes…there was a man…

Actually I’ve already known him for years, since I was a child. You ask me how come? He was living next door to my house.

A son of a priest.
Good looking guy.

Here is the quick recap. He had a crush on me since I was in college, but at that time I said ‘no’. Then I choose a ‘yes’ answer at the 2nd time offer. We’ve been through tough months during our relationship. It was my parents, they don’t even consider him because of his past. Could not tell you details here, but trust me..I can easily understand why they did that, but hard enough for me to let him go. What I remember is we’ve been sneaking out for about 8 months, just to see each other.

Such a huge love he had given. I knew that I could miss once in a lifetime chance if I make that decision to let go of him. But it was one moment, one view that across my eyes…when I take a closer look at my mother’s weary face. What a sorrow eyes she had at that time…at that few seconds. Looks like been a burder to her with my relationship problem. Ever since that painful view, I’ve made up my mind, but still no chance to talk.

One day, right after my 120km trip, I was on the bus home. I thought that must be my only chance, it was now or never. It was pouring rain, I asked him to pick me up and I choose that dinner time…I let him go…April 2004.

Yes, still using that nokia 3200. Of course there are many messages and photos left and not been deleted for long times. I let him go but let his memory stay. I was like dead living person months after that, I let my heart go with him I think. We were still friends after that, but never heard any news from him again. For years.

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Next one.
Still the same brand, I was kind of nokia minded. I choose black nokia 7610. I bought it in April 2005. I like its shape and of course the color.
A man behind that? Yes, I forgot to mention that:)
He was a friend …to a friend of mine. We worked in the same company, but different department. So there is no chance to get to know him at work. We were introduced by a friend of mine at a new year celebration…December 31th 2004. There is no special feature on him as I remember. I noticed that he had a self confidence.

No physically special..except his height..

I can see strong character at first sight. I can’t expect anything. One reason is I was just having fun far away from home during that celebration. Other reason is…I knew that my friend who introduced us had a special feeling for him, just knew it. Never expected to see him again…until that live concert. Here is the plan : me with my 2 other friend want to see that music concert, and of course already had 3 tickets in hands. But last minutes before that, this friend of mine wanted to join us…with that man. Short story, after that concert we have couple chances to see each other and of course… dealing with our cell phone.

Such an important role they played in our life, don’t you think?

I thought we have that ‘bizarre love triangle’… but it’s not the bizarre thing what I mean here, at that time I feel like I’m gonna lose my best friend because of that.

But my heart showed me another way.

So I tool that risk, because I knew they were just friends. Of course I knew that she will at least made a distance to me or even worst. Well, best friend ‘in some cases’ is not forever.

The one which live forever was the distance she made.

Many people, especially at work changed their opinion about me after that. Well, I just leave it and I think time will tell. That’s the only thing I can do. So we’re having serious relationship for about 7 months and then take a huge step ahead.. marriage.

Yes, right. He’s my husband I tell you in a story now. I let my cell phone full with messages and photos during our relationship. I saved up to 300 messages here in my cell phone. I’m thankful that it’s still worked after 4 years now, although have been drowned once at my bath room:).

Maybe it’s time for a change, but do I need one more man as the reason behind that? Haha, we’ll never know. Well, I let you know when I have a new one…cell phone I mean.

01:35am
(when expecting Manchester United vs Internazionale match)