Had a deep thinking on something..

Lately I've been thinking about something.
As you know I'm a working mother with 3 years old daughter. What I've been thinking is this...I wake up about 4 AM in the morning everyday (including sunday), take a bath, do some home tasks like washing clothes, dishes, and cooking. Took 2 hours to do those things, and after that waked my daughter up from bed, take her for bath if there's still time for that, because you know how difficult a child taken for morningbath. Mostly it will take about 20 minutes for them to finish.

Breakfast is next thing to do, I always think that that's the most important meal to take for a whole day. Without make up on, I'm ready to hit the road to go for work. Took about 30 minutes, so I need to be ready before 7:20.

Thanks to my sweet husband that always lead us come and go for about 40km everyday. I think he's more tired than me, regardless no additional work for him at home:) that's okay for me, since I'm blessed with extra energy to do lots of daily work. I think (and I believe) every moms in the world blessed with that kind of energy too:) But sometimes I need to take break..

8 AM to 4 PM. @work.
What I love about my work as an IT staff is this :
Dealing with user problem, sometimes negotiate and break a lance with them..
Dealing with IT suppliers, have to be strict with them, some of them just want to earn more money from us and being not supportive..
Dealing with boss, I have many numbers of them here, so sometimes we have to be careful to make our own priority. Every case is urgent (they said) but it's always needed to queued up..

Last but not least :
Dealing with technical consultants, most of them are foreigner so that's the best time to learn English!:) Sometimes they're nice to talk about things other than work also.

If got no extra work at the office, I'll be home at 5 or so. Take a bath and start doing my task as mother. If i'm around, my kid won't let me do anything but to play with her, sing many kid 'foolish' songs, and follow her acts. That's been precious hours for me, being with my family and watching my daughter grow so fast. Each day is like winking my eyes.

That's what I worried much now, that I won't be able to pay attention on my daughter growth if I still work outside.

Considering we have lots of dreams in life, like having our own house, give my daughter a little brother or sister as a family member, and build our own business, I think for few
years we have to earn lots of money from work. And that will be hard if one of us quit from work, not less confidence to run our own business, but it's safe to run our side job
when we are working as employee also. About that house, we still search for it. Almost buy one but failed at last agreement, so it's time for us to take a deep breath and let it go.

To calm down my confusion, I think it's better for me to let everything go with the flow first, In the mean time I try to improve mother-child companionship first, so that my kid
feel more comfort with herself to learn everything with me on her side. Sometimes I imagine what would I look like as an ordinary full time house wife:) haha.

So stick around here to catch my new look:) just kidding, that will take long time for me to decide.

PS: wish me luck with the new house also, we really ...really... want that to become a real!!

You are getting old today

Happy birthday to you..

Now is april 29th and as I remember you're already 33 years old. I've just remember your birthday few days ago, after I met you for the second time at the church.

Sorry, but honestly there's nothing I can do to give you a greeting on this. I don't know your current cellphone number, so I think if I write on the net, at least some people knew how happy I am for you today. Hope you're blessed with happiness, health, and joyful. You deserve the best in life, regardless all you've done in the past.

One thing that I want you to know is this:

There was a time that I let love lived inside my heart for you..

But now is the time that I let that love find its place out there in the sky.

So time will never forget us..

And our story is always written.

Cheers!:)

Song for the soul

I remember that I want you to listen to these songs (have just found 1 so far), hope can feed our soul.

	Sidney Mohede - Aku Berserah
	Found at bee mp3 search engine

It's in Indonesian language mixed with English, so at the last part you will understand the meaning. The title means 'I surrender'... In the mean time, I'll try to search for more songs that we can listen together, but I let you know when I have stopped to search for them. And still try to find a way to upload songs from my PC to my blog (hope there are people out there had succeed to do the same thing and able to share their experience with me here)..

God bless you all.

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #22)

Last day of the project.
It supposed to be a relax day, but phone keeps on ringing. Keeps on receiving complains, especially because of the process changes. Quite big changes I think, so it's supposed to be hard to follow for users. I understand that, so I had prepared my ears and lips to listen and to explain to them. Viuhh...exhausted.

But I hope slowly (but sure) they will get used to it, since we don't have choice but to keeps on moving.

I buy few souvenirs for Brian, actually for his wife and kids (sorry about that Brian..but I have no idea what kind of things you like..haha). So, this is it. We decided to stand on our own, soon or later...the time is come. It's farewell time. He said to me 'I thought you'd ask me to stay.' Haha, I would but I feel sorry for my company to spend more money on you:)...That's just in my mind.. of course.

One thing I feel this morning after the project over..
One little piece of my heart had flown away

Well...Thank you very much for your support, hard work, time, cooperation, and last but not least...friendship. Because I have you as my friend now.

One numb moment..

It's easter today, happy easter:)...
I take my daughter to the church so she can meet friends at her age:) Sometimes she shakes her legs and hands follow the song leader, but some other time she's just staring at other children, I think she wonder what crowded is that..

Pay full attention of my daughter makes me heedless for one person who's watching over me there...He call my name and I can see him.Guy next door..

That's the moment that I feel numb.
My mouth, my mind, also my feeling..

But few seconds after that, I can control myself and had a little conversation with him. A little overweight but still the same person I knew. He asked me about my daughter and few other things. But I have to watched over my kid again (she'll disappear one second after I winked my eyes)...so I let that moment and chance gone. But I think many eyes watch over us since they knew that we had a relationship so long ago. Not correct time and place to meet I supposed, because I've never expected to see him so soon.

Not so soon actually, because it's been over 3 years. But what I mean is, If I met him at a better time I would gladly talk to him, just to know that he is just fine. Yeah, maybe later.
Amien..trully, It would be glad to meet him again after today.

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #20)

We have several problems today with our new servers. One is the lack of resources for users to run their process. So, we've added more resources for them. Well, we have not enough number of users to do testing, so it's unpredictable. Hope it's better next monday when users get back to work.Have to wait...

Other problem is on the system. I think it's a system bug we have in our new system, so I made a log call on our technical support. Of course take a long time, since it's saturday afternoo. But I think we are lucky today, we've got the solution, at least we can try. So, we have no choice but to download and apply the fixes. Then i'll do some testing, looks fine...Thanks GOD, otherwise I have no idea on what i'm going to do. But to make sure whether there is no more bugs, have to wait again...

So, my saturday night life is at my office:) so 'interesting'..

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #19)

GOOD FRIDAY
But I can't go to the church today:) haha, that's ok. Any friday will be as good as today, If we believe. That's for sure.

Just to make sure that the users will feel comfort works in the new servers, I sent them email today, so tomorrow will be a big day for us here in IT. We have to make sure everything is running with 1000% performance.

Hope so..

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #18)

ELECTION DAY...
Today I prepare my self for vote:)
As a citizen, I think it's our rights and obligation at the same time to vote.
Honestly, I prefer not to vote. You know why? because among all those political party, I think they are not good enough to receive trust and chance to do good things to our people. Only hope for vote, but nothing to give back. Sorry, but I think we're agree on that...

So, I go for vote. I choose only those who better in 'believe in GOD' (not believe in religion) and nationality. At least I don't throw away my right, that's was just my opinion, so lets wait on the result. Actually I've already known the result, because of course big and 'traditional' party will won, they have all to win the election.

Back on business, we can take a deep breath from now on, left only few testing and tuning up the system to work not just properly but also 'fast'. Come on, it's US$160,000 invest on the new servers! so, huge expectation on its performance.

Go home at 6:30pm...

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #17)

I told you before...

World Record for coming home late has been broken again!!

But I think this one will stand for long times to be broken. I left my office at 11:35pm and reach home after midnight. goodness!! And you know something, my lovely husband is always waiting for hours during my times in the office. I think I'll have nice sleep tonight, after this midnight I mean.

Tomorrow is a holiday, and the day after tomorrow too.
Election day is April 9th
Good Friday in April 10th.
But for me, there will be no holiday until we can go live on new servers.

That would be my pleasure, but it's been a pleasure these 3 weeks time:)

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #16)

I think i'll need more vitamin these days, my stamina is currently drop compare to last week. But it's still okay, just a bit tired..

Anyway, more and more testing tonight...I can achieve degree 'Master of Testing' for that:) haha. But we can prepare for the worst with good testing. On and off, shutdown and restart, log on and off...I try to learn different things when switch over those status, so it won't make me bored.

One thing that I enjoy so much is to introduce many kind of food here, but of course we'll think twice to ask him out for lunch at roadside, too risky. What if he has stomachache, my schedule will become longer...oh no!

Wait..wait... he's calling for me again, I think he can't live without me:) haha..
Bye for now...:) take care.

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #15)

World Record for coming home late has been broken!!



Yeap, last night I was going home at 10:45pm, and I reach home 30 minutes after that. So, that's not impossible that the record is going to be broken again this week, that's we can not guarantee:) haha. This is our last week on the project, so will be heavy days with testing and try to make the system as stable as possible.



Again...we must test it when other users is 'asleep', that's why our time is limited to do system testing. By the way..anyway..busway..we're having system training these 3 days ahead, so in the morning we face whiteboard the after 5pm we see black server screen:)



Not yet that I can take our consultant photos, but i try my best:) haha.
Wish me luck (not actually a luck, just need a chance..).

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #13)

Saturday afternoon...don't worry about me, I can go home 'early' today.
Yeah...sometimes we need rest, recharge our energy to get back on track on moday...
so....

SEE YOU SOON

i'll be in touch

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #12)

Almost weekend again...
Hmm..actually I have less words left to say now, but I think I have something to say..
Especially for trisna, there you are in Denpasar Bali (such a long way to reach you), but you know that you always here..in my heart. Hello there, how are you today girl?

She was complained about her jobs yesterday, so no space left at her desk lately. Always full of paperworks. I think you should complain to your boss sweetheart, not me:) haha. But of course, I think what she needs right now is some words from me that can ease her thoughts.She said that I always have enough 'ready stock' that kind of words:) haha.

When I was busy with my daily jobs, that's the moment that I feel being count on. So imagine if you're sick and not able to work, what will happen. From that thoughts, I realize that even we're in the middle of cruciality, we have to be calm down.

Your boss yell at you..
Calm down, take your time (but of course that's because you can yell back to him:)haha).

Your jobs keep coming and like never ended..
Calm down, so you can think.
And if there's time that you can't think..
Calm down, so you can pray.

Your bone ache..
Calm down, so you can rest then think how would you ask your husband to get you a little massage maybe:).

I need to go back on business now...so good luck to you.
I hope you'll be fine...and get promoted soon.
Amien.

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #11)

Regular day.
Regular schedule.
Regular people.
But I try to make it as 'extraordinary' as I can. What I can think is this..

you have to love the life you live.

If you love someone or something, that's where you put your heart. So, that's what I always do. So, all the 'storm' in it is just about to domesticated. Until we are being 'a master' in it, it's our job to taken care of..

it's already 8:15pm, and I'm going home in about 30 minutes from now. Hope can talk to you again soon.

Good night everybody:)

Journal of 26 days upgrading project (Day #10)

I've been made my own World Record for coming home late from work!!!
Don't know if I should happy or sad about it:) haha.

What time was it?
10:30pm and reach home at 11:00pm.
After that?
take a bath at 11:10pm.
Next?
go to bed at 11:30pm.
So that's it?
Yes, for tuesday.

Again...wednesday. April fool's day. But I have to stay 'unfool' at least for next 2 weeks time. I think i'll be going home 'early' tonight, maybe at 6:30 or 7:00pm. We've done on simulation test so we have reached next step for build the DR (disaster recovery) servers. Still on checking some other things and doing my regular jobs here, so i'll be in touch...

ps: can't wait to watch 'Musics and Lyrics', Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore would be the perfect couple. Will also expecting the songs from the OST. I'll let you know.